Before she was Mrs. John Averette Bryan, before she inherited a house and a ledger and twenty-five years of reunion summers, she was Miss Lynda Lee of Talbotton — a physician’s daughter raised in the world her father had come home from the war to build, a world that assumed its own permanence and expected its daughters to record it.
She had been doing exactly that since she was fourteen. What the world did not yet know, in January of 1892, was what it was about to ask of her generation in exchange for those carefree years. That accounting was still ahead. For now there was a party.
The girls kept the young men waiting, just to show them how it felt.
Leap Year came only once in four years, and with it came one of its oldest privileges: for these few weeks the calendar turned the social order gently on its head, and the demure and timid maidens might venture to do the asking. The invitations had gone out on tiny white doves. The young men of Jackson had been promised the protection and escort, care and attention of some little lady for one evening at least. They assembled at the Dempsey House around the glowing fires of the cozy parlors and waited, as young men had always waited, while the girls primped and reprimped and let them wonder. At length silvery tones and soft musical laughter chimed like tinkling bells upon the moonlit veranda.
She was twenty years old. She signed the piece L. L. L., Miss Lynda Lee of Talbotton.
At the beautiful residence of Mrs. Morrison all was brightness and beauty. The rooms were decorated with holly-sprays, coral-berries, mistletoe, palms. From every sprig of evergreen, over the pictures and mirrors, the unwary found themselves entangled in the meshes of cobwebs — tiny white threads, filmy and near invisible, enticingly luring, Will you walk into my parlor, said the spider to the fly. Mr. Lee Smith was tenderly and carefully watched over by Miss Lynda Lee of Talbotton.
She described the young men’s costumes with the same precision she turned on the women’s, which no one did, and noted with mock solemnity that if the boys remembered as little about what the girls wore as the girls did about them, surely a vast deal of finery, feathers and flowers, ribbons and silks were wasted on the desert air. She was twenty years old and she already knew exactly what she was doing. The wit was not decoration. It was the method. You put the true observation inside the charming language and you trusted the right reader to find it.
Some of the boys were very coquettish and flirted recklessly. Some engaged themselves to three or four at the same time. Most, however, behaved in a very ladylike manner.
She filed the piece and went back to Talbotton and kept writing.
Five years later, in the last days of October 1897, she was covering the social season in Talbotton: the debut parties, the hunting parties, the receptions at the Hotel Weston where musicians were placed on the grand stairway and discoursed music throughout the entire evening, where the room wherein an elegant luncheon was served was decorated artistically with ferns and chrysanthemums, where the pink jardiniere in the centre of the table contained an exquisite collection of chrysanthemums of rainbow hue.
She listed the guests. Every name set down with the full attention of a woman who understood that to name a person precisely was to honor them. Miss Mary Matthews. Miss Edna Earle Smith. Mr. R. Kimbrough Ragland. Miss Lynda Lee. Professor J. Avrette Bryan.
She had been putting his name into the newspaper for four years before she let him put her name into a deed. That was the courtship, set down in the social columns of the Talbotton New Era in the precise language a small Georgia town required, the true thing carried inside the form the occasion allowed.
She filed the piece and signed it. Lynda Lee.
The buggy left Talbotton before the dew had burned off.
It was John’s idea to start early. He had been describing the Old Bryan Homestead to her for years — the way the porch faced west into the valley, the pecans standing around it like a congregation, the mulberry grove along the approach, older than anyone could say with certainty. His grandfather James had built it at the very edge of the Georgia frontier, on land that had been Creek country until ten years before the bricks were laid. The world the house was built into had not lasted long. The house had lasted considerably longer. He wanted her to see it in good light.
She was twenty-nine years old. She had never seen Houston County.
They changed at Macon, taking the Macon and Florida Railway south toward Perry and Kathleen. Two miles south of the station the road turned to fine pale sand, the wheels of the buggy nearly silent on it, the horse’s hooves muffled to a soft rhythm. John was watching the road with the expression of a man coming home.
“Around this bend,” he said.
The mulberry trees came first. A grove of them, full and green still in the early autumn, standing along the approach to the house in the way that trees stand when they have been there long enough to consider themselves permanent. And then, through and beyond them, the house. Six white columns across the front. The porch facing west. Pecan trees standing around it with the comfortable authority of trees that have been in one place long enough to stop noticing they are trees. Across the road, large oaks marked the edge of the land where it leveled before dropping into a valley, and beyond the valley the sun was doing something particular with the light that she wanted immediately to write down and was not sure she could.
John was watching her.
“Well,” she said.
He smiled. He had always been able to tell when she was composing.
They were married in December 1901. She became Mrs. John Averette Bryan in the way she became everything: completely, with her full attention, without surrendering any part of what she already was. The column continued. The New Era continued. The household arranged itself around two people who both knew how to run a life and had the good sense not to interfere with each other’s methods.
He went where the work took him and came back and the household received him and continued. She ran the newspaper. She covered the UDC conventions, the literary clubs, the social occasions that constituted the public life of Talbotton in the years before the war had fully receded into memory and the world that replaced it had fully declared itself. She paid attention to all of it. That was her work and she did not stop doing it.
Cabaniss came first. Then John Lee. Then, on an evening in June 1910, a baby sister was left at the home of John Lee Bryan, and Cabaniss woke his brother to tell him, and in the morning they rushed pell-mell to their mother’s room, and the baby was presented to Lee as his own, and he wanted to know where the basket was, the basket in which the angels had brought her. His mother pointed to a rose-colored basket on the table near her bed.
She named the baby Lynda Lee.
John died on the fourteenth of February, 1914.
He had been riding the night train, the Pullman sleeper, the familiar route he had known for years, and somewhere in the cold the spring-loaded latch closed behind him. He was forty-five years old. Cabaniss was twelve. John Lee was nine. Little Lynda Lee was three years old and would not remember her father clearly. That was the particular weight of it, and she carried it without stopping, without explanation, forward into what the days required.
The will named the house. She had known about the house, had sat on its porch in the autumn light of 1901 and felt, without quite being able to say why, that she was exactly where she was supposed to be. She had written about it in the reunion columns, had gone back every summer, had understood it as John’s inheritance and hers by extension. What she had not known, until she found it in the document, was what he had done with her name.
The Old Bryan Homestead. Mulberry Grove. Renamed, in those last pages, Lynton Farm. The first syllable of her name joined to the last syllable of Houston County. Permanent. Specific. His.
And now hers.